juz lo0k at the time now.. all thankz to my lappy.. haiz.. uninstalling cs3 master collection now.. coz the cd key expired.. sad case.. i didnt realise it until andy told mi.. havent use them for onli a few days..

over the phone wif honey now.. while i blog n wait for the thing to complete uninstalling.. n him playing dota.. sometimes he makes mi feel so in love wif him.. yet sometimes it doesnt feel dat way.. i dunno y too.. maybe like wad i've told him.. i dun feel enough effort from him..

tis is the part i didnt tell him about.. although he always made time to meet mi n all.. yet it doesnt seem like we're spending the time together correctly.. i am feeling quite confused wif tis issue too.. it's not like we're not happy spending time together.. or it might be the feeling like we could haf done more interesting stuffs together..

another thing is.. 2 geminis sometimes cant make a realli nice couple.. we haf the tendency of being overly indecisive.. it's those extreme kind.. anything i oso anyting.. cant decide on lots of things at times.. then i remembered wad ash said.. girls like guys to be more decisive.. so maybe it apply to mi too? i guess so..

same age isnt a prob.. last time ck oso same age ma.. but i find him too immature.. in a few aspects la.. like too overly superstitious.. blah blah n the blah.. well.. same phrase again.. you'll encounter/ experience different things in phrases of your life.. i've passed my extremely playful phrase.. but it's my honey's startin of it.. coz once he finish his army.. he'll go for his diploma n maybe even degree? so now it's more like a slack time for him.. it's not wrong.. but i cant join him wif dat phrase too much anymore.. reason being.. once the phrase is over.. it's over.. no longer staying up whole nite juz to maple/rose online/ragnarok etc.. i am no such gamer freak anymore even if i still like games... i haf to work n think of more stuffs now.. maybe i've grown up...? yet i'm still kiddish...

juz now when i was having dinner wif honey.. a topic came up.. we were discussing about his camp fren's baby's 1st mth on 26th.. the previously tis couple had a cold war.. i was telling honey.. they're too young to be married n haf their own family n such.. the wife is onli about 17/18yrs old.. happy together but they'll still quarrel over small issues like playing too much games etc.. they're not ready... still @ playful age.. honey was joking.. "why not we get married n try out whether wad u've said is true?".. in my mind i was thinking.. even if honey realli mean it.. i'll definitely reject.. coz he's still at dat stage too.. i wont wanna be the one thinking of all the stuffs n struggle myself.. a family takes 2 person to build up.. possible for 1 to do it.. but wont.. it's not a "blessful" thing to do...

wellx.. honey wont visit my blog i guess.. i think the day for him to read my blog.. is when i'm angry wif him but i refuse to tell him wad is it about.. or when he starts to panic regarding certain things about mi.. i hate to say it but it realli feels like i've lost to naruto..

seems like my blog is my trashing container.. juz dump everything in when i dun feel like saying it.. larling.. i miss you so much.. i wanna wet your sleeves.. lol...

i've typed enough.. haf been struggling wif tis stupid virus infected lappy.. haf to type extremely slowly.. ZZZZZzzzz... haiz.. realli like word for word kind... shitty manz... need to find my lappy doc a.k.a lamest sister... goodnightz...