i was told by some1 i'm being too nice.. but does being too nice lead to the word "stpidity"? it's not like i delibrately wanna be nice to some1.. but when u feel like it.. u'll juz do it.. unfortunately.. things juz dun seem to go well exactly how u wanted it to be.. nobody sees the effort.. nobody says anything.. nobody do anything about it.. sometimes i wonder.. why do i spend to much time on other things other than for myself? then... selfish thinking i thought.. there i am.. back to square one.. always giving in to people whom i care dearly for.. when i say it's okie.. do i realli mean it? or is it a sign of : i dun like it but i am giving it to u coz u mean alot to mi.. i hate to say it but it happens to almost everyone i care around mi..
i once told some1.. i dun think there's anyone i can open up fully to yet.. alot of unhappiness sometimes.. 1 close fren said.. "u always look so cheerful.. didnt expect you to think so much about things too.." the fact is.. i am still a gal + gemini afterall.. although i might seem happy all the while.. doesnt mean i dont have my own set of thinking.. then i got another comment from my fren.. "if i dunno you.. i'll haf thought u're 23 tis year..." these shows how much people know mi.. it doesnt mean a life-long fren will know mi more.. there're so many exceptions.. some read my mind pretty well.. was so touched by the care by all those.. many thankz from deep down inside my heart.. of coz.. my dearest larling.. weilun.. n melvin.. thankz... *big hugz*
i am giving chances to my honey.. after spoken to him for a night @ wcp.. got to know more about him.. happi dat he opened up to mi wif his own stuffs.. like wad i've always said.. it's like a learning process.. upon hearing it.. they do linked back to my own experiences.. which i am glad to say.. i am over those issues n i know how to handle them well.. honey.. u haf to do it too.. dun bump around in circles.. u wont get anywhere.. KNOW wad u wan.. n make sure u DO wad u wan.. i can onli serve as a reminder/supporter and not some1 to program u to do things.. *muark* well.. this applies to all too.. mark wad u wan.. n go for it.. dont give empty promisses or say things which u cant achieve/meet.. it'll onli disappoint people around u..
thoughts for the day: it's never too late..
WELCOME
it's juz like a record of my life.. wad's happening.. wad's going on.. wad's missing.. it's a long journey be it walking alone or with someone.. it'll always be updated.. always with different topics i hope.. =)
